Dear Mr. Freud

Why am i always insecure and defensive when it comes to writing? Just yesterday someone asked me what i am doing right now and i answered rather jokingly that i am writing a book. I used phrases like "well, i try to..", "a book, yes, i know it sounds stupid" and worse to play it down. Why am i doing this? Is there a reaction any other than a pityful smile to be expected? I am the worst sales-person ever!

It's all me, i am the one who self-deprecates my project. What is wrong with me I'm asking you? Am I so afraid of failing that i'm self-sabotaging before finding out if there's a real chance for my story?

I have to get over it, because it's just plain stupid. I am writing a book!